Today was a hard day for me. The heat really took its toll on me today. I also was asked several times how Ellie is doing. That is always hard because I always respond with she is doing well, which on a typical day would be fine. But today I had to go into detail with the speech therapist about Ellie’s future with speech and what the Doctors Expectations are. Needless to say it took everything not to cry. Luckily I was able to hold it in until I got home and was able to get away from Ellie for a few minutes. It feels like years since January but unfortunately we are only 10 weeks in to chemo with a full year to go. Most people have a perception that the Chemo will take care of everything and we will be done after a year. A year is just a starting point. The chemo will not take care of the tumor a hundred percent as a matter of fact they are not even sure if it will even shrink it. Unfortunately this is the best possible treatment we can do for her at this time.
I have good days and bad days. Unfortunately today was a bad day. I hope for a good day tomorrow.
Chemo treatment number 10 here we come.
A mother with a battle ahead of her.